Well, I don't know why? When I want to write about the serious things in my life I'll write it here? OK just don't mind

I want to improve my skill of drawing

I love drawing and will love forever, I just...I just want to do my best about drawing but I don't wanna practice anymore because of my mother

She said I have to sell my works or just...umm what does it say...it's about contest...

And she said if I don't sell my works it's ALL useless and said a lot of things about how useless my works are if I don't sell them... I don't know why she said something like this...but it make me sad

I told her that I love drawing but I wanna drawing as habit not as a job... I don't wanna draw something in someone's order, I don't want to use my works as goods (because I'm not that good), I wanna be prosecutor (this word right?)well, I don't love this job very much but...I wanna be prosecutor because it can make a lot of money (OK this is the only one she's agreed)

I know that my mother is not a greedy person, she's just want me to do the work that I love (drawing) but I decide to do something else because I don't have confident on my works (well, I love my works but I don't think someone will love my works)

What about my life in the future?
I wonder...........